So let this be a long one because I feel as if I have a lot to say.

Audrey just left, she was the last to go out of the 5 of us that were in this apartment. It’s so bittersweet ending another year of college: my third!! I still, and I know it will be for awhile, am so shocked at how fast my life is going. I definitely think I am taking it for what it is worth but only I can judge that. You know the saying things go wrong so better things can fall into place. I believe that but it’s hard when you want something so much and it just doesn’t give back like you would want. And logistically I should know better, humans in general should know better, than to keep up trying for something/someone who just isn’t giving back. But we do it by nature I think so that we have something to always hope for..anyways.

Was walking in the subway last night and I saw a bum sleeping down in the subway(terminal) and I thought to myself..how is it that these people let themselves fall to get to where they are. I know life can be gruelingly hard but I know already, and I live a privileged life, I would never let myself fall into that. The moment I knew I had to do something or I would be out on the street I would do what it would take not to be. Why aren’t they?? Begging can only get one so far then you’ve lost everyone around you. No one likes a beggar. It just seems like from an outsiders perspective it would take A LOT to get to that point where someone had no where else to go besides in the streets. Can it be blamed on poor parenting? Not teaching their kids strong enough values to sustain themselves and equip them for life..This thought process of mine and seeing people like the guy I saw last night made me think of a really good story I could write: the life in the day of a street person. I think I may do it(after I convince someone to do it with me…just in case).

I think I will make this blog into a story type of thing, post my ideas for stories so I remember them. I want to start freelancing once I get to be a strong enough writer and this way I am already ahead of myself.

Now to finish off, 10 random things you probably didn’t know about me and might not care to:

1. I live on an island, and I truly forget that sometimes.

2. My best friend in the world lives clear across the country, we talk everyday in some form of technology or another, and we are closer than ever.

3. I moved to New York cold turkey, didn’t know a soul(except my cousins) and now I believe I have more friends than ever.

4. Scholastically, I don’t believe I have learned much in college. Experience wise, I am learning for what I’m paying for.

5. I have a passion for forensics and if I wasn’t going in the direction I am now, I would probably go to grad school for something along those lines.

6. I don’t understand the world, it’s too complex, but I’m trying to figure it out…slowly.

7. I think if you believe in something, no matter what it is, you should follow it…all the way through.

8. My new favorite drink is a vodka-tonic and let me say not only is it delicious but I avoid the calories and the acid from the cranberry juice and the hangover is much less the next day.

9. I used to believe there was only one true love for everyone but I think there are many for everyone, but there will always be that one,two or three people that will forever hold a spot in our hearts. It’s inevitable.

10. I over-think..probably doing it right now;)

Over and out!